Notes:
This page was definitely formatted to be viewed on a computer- if you’re on a mobile it’s probably gonna look pretty funky #oopsies
I started writing these a few years ago in hopes of finding a better way to process big emotions (good & bad!)
Mood range is pretty sporadic: anything from super fun & lighthearted to heavy & triggering
I get a lot out of writing these & wanted to share a few because they mean so much to me!
Not all my poems make this page & some are only snippets b/c vulnerability is hard <3
enjoy! (maybe?)
soul stitches
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days keep slippin' by
in one blink of my eyes
but lately baby
i don't seem to mind
been workin' to be better
stitchin' up my soul
my heart beats smoother
yet i'm waiting for a shoe to fall
untitled
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we’re all just pieces of stardust
mosaics of everyone we meet
atoms of a lucky recipe
& yet we all share one thing
a race against the reaper
one chance at a charming life
& i’m not sure what matters
should your journey look like mine?
we’re all doomed to be forgotten
just tiny ants in a sea of time
untitled
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slow walkin' mid street
barefoot on the black top
dusk melted to green
rain drops ain't slowin'
tired eyes so steady
dark hair in the breeze
she's dreams on repeat
singin' to lonely suns
spin dancin' for trees
untitled
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sun is shining
longest day of the year
trusting the universe
it'll be okay dear
living for the tuesdays
the happiness inbetween
finding peace
always out in the green
someday, someone,
i'll hold you near
slow life
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careful steps midstream
nature roaring
quiet thoughts drifting
never felt so alone
never felt so like me
a slow life feels more worth living
slow walks on the coastal
valuing strength over social
curling up with books
keeping a small circle
not caring how life looks
a slow life feels more worth living
up to a lot but telling so little
growing to love in my present
finding peace in my acceptance
doing nothing
& everything's changing
a slow life feels more worth living
somehow, someway (snippet)
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i never used to like the cold
the harsh nip of a bitter wind
the creak inside my bones
but now i crave it's quiet grace
the chill kiss inside my lungs
the soft peace of a fresh snow
somehow, someway
the cold grounds me home
street signs
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moved across the country at twenty two
telling people i was looking for a better view
but really all i was hoping
they'd say montana looks good on you
but now i'm
homesick for a place i've out grown
a place i no longer call home
and i miss all my friends
but damn
i still can't answer my phone
and i'm doing more of the same
still chasing stars and late night driving
always watching the sun on its horizon
yup same old phone-still got verizon
and i
no longer know whats past twenty five
endless search of something
to make me feel alive
and i'm feeling lost
no direction, yeah
but it might be my fault
streets signs keep going missing
yeah it might be my fault
street signs keep going missing
untitled
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and she said
why so serious dear
live a little
live a little
live a little
let go of all that fear
bargained with fates (snippet)
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begged stars to align
bargained with fates
& then you walked in
sayin' sorry for the wait
untitled
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going to concerts alone
search of whom i don't know
dancing under starlight
romancing on my own
untitled
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energy buzzing in the air
charged in a single glance
lightning about to strike
someone's gonna get hurt
can't seem to break the gaze
real life movie scene
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starlit road cruisin'
warm summer breeze
salt in the air
never felt so free
aimless riding
just the girls & me
outrunning time
drinking in youth
fearless loving
snapshot immortality
a small forever
real life movie scene
mid may
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tension seepin' mid may
stuck ya in checkmate
is that all you have to say?
nothing ever changes
you've locked your own cage
waking up
& finding the same ol' day
selfish exchanges
standing in your own way
withering on the spot
rootin' in rot
living the same ol' day
wishful buds bleedin' mid may
jekyll & hyde
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my twisted view of what was me & you
a split duality of the person i knew
despoiler disguised with virtue
the violator acting as victim
you're jekyll & hyde inside my mind
hate to wish you well deserved pain
guilt stricken for being okay
ashamed of our story
when i'm not to blame
caring from afar & never forgiving
i'm jekyll & hyde inside my mind
liars at heart (snippet)
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he was a ramblin' man at his core
convinced he wanted to settle down
does it count as lying to another
when it stems from lying to himself
she was a kind-hearted lady
convinced she'd been outlawed from loving
does it count as lying to another
when it stems from lying to herself
he said she was all he could want
she said he was too wild to love
does it count as lying to each other
when it stems from lying to themselves
what good can come from liars at heart
untitled
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pain demands to be felt
& have its honoring
to find yourself in darkness
you have to start wandering
so ditch the novocaine
& walk into the gloom
yield to all the pain
the only way out is through
not who i was, not who i'm meant to be
but i'm on my way
& i like this version of she
tested & trialed, resilient & loving
walking out of the fog
the darkness is lifting
& there's no turning back
on the one way road called growing
untitled
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i've always found loving
to be a beautiful curse
to feel so deeply
only to be left lonely
it takes time to fade
& never goes quite away
untitled
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the further you wander
the closer you go
darling don't you know
all roads lead to home
darling don't you know
all roads bring you home
a debt thats owed (so we've been told)
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a desk and a dollar clouding dreams
faultless puppets strung for high society
bettin' on demise & gamblin' our time
morality's disguise as she's passing by
black & white
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life seems simple in black & white
hurt me & there's no going back
get too close & baby i'll bite
if you do it once, you'll do it twice
i hate thinking in black & white
untitled
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it's about past midnight
cold enough to see your breath
we're dancing in the headlights
talking about life after death
for just one moment
life doesn't feel like such a mess
it's about past midnight
& the nights like these
i'm at my best
untitled (snippet)
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took a wrong turn
lost myself in grey
found a map
but it was too late
truth is heavy when its weighed
truth is heavy when its weighed
not a day of mourning (snippet)
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make me the villain
for telling the truth
an ice cold heart
tying the noose
called the trial
sentenced the death
but the jury has spoken
takes two for a mess
you can be the hero
wearing your mask
pulling the trigger
killing us fast
nerves firing
body warm
barely in the ground
not a day of mourning
& you're fucking around
not a day of mourning
& i'm glad i skipped town
smoke, fire
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young, curious
the light in her eyes still gleamed
wild, unafraid
living in her own world
free, innocent
yet to be licked by flame
reckless, naïve
she walked straight into fire
staggered, alone
narrow escape from the smoke
wounded, broken
some burns never heal the same
rugged, stubborn
stronger than ever conceived
wistful, forlorn
blind bravery lost to wind
hard to save (snippet)
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found myself a guy with greenish eyes
never felt such comfort in a patient smile
nature is his savior, the outdoorsman life
not a thing in the world he can't do
done the minute he puts his mind to
jam bands & the dead in his heart
a southern boy & his goofy charm
//
lost himself a brown eyed girl
kind eyes hiding a bright mind
a few years his younger
a contagious smile
born to be in nature
desperate to be alive
a northeast lady & lover of life
untitled
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i'll wait a lifetime to find you
stars take their time aligning
untitled
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baby it only thunders when it rains
driving for hours just to feel safe
need of a place to escape my own brain
when did life become such a god damn race
untitled
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i'm afraid that this is how it's always been
i'm afraid this is how it will always be
when will i stop existing in my head
when will i remember how to just be
untitled
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care free & a little bit reckless
no seatbelt nor destination
and i know there's no turnin' back
on the one way road called growin'
untitled
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taking step by step
with wind in my hair
& dirt on my toes
flowers are blooming
bird chirps in my ear
feeling so aligned
i am in nature
nature is in me
sparks
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dangerous to the touch
seen that look before
strangers so familiar
you've known me
& i've known you
doomed to meet the wildfire
who am i, who are you
to let this wildflower bloom
snowberry lane
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no contact
we called it a clean break
hometown visit & a goodbye exchange
when did it turn into a late night drive
three hours pass by in the blink of an eye
endless conversation
a flow like old times
no streets left untouched
no destination in mind
all drawn to an end
with a turn off of main
my car now parked
on snowberry lane
between lines of silence
we both knew
a reality outside
impossible to ignore
a hand hesitation
paused at the door
you looked at me and said
why don't we just drive some more
in the grey
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craving a partner & feeling best alone
breathing the sunshine & yearning for thunder
believing in something & questioning religion
working a desk & living to be outside
loving you & knowing i deserve better
maybe i'm in the grey
baby i'm in the grey
taming my ego & trusting my gut
married parents with never a sign of love
dreaming realities & grasping at the present
holding on while trying to let go
missing a hometown we know i've outgrown
maybe i'm in the grey
baby i'm in the grey
the invisible pedestal they put me on
a hopeful future without any plans
fantasize a person i'll never be
having good & feeling undeserving
lonelier together than now that we're apart
maybe i'm in the grey
baby i'm in the grey
untitled
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bad dance moves
full sends
a curiosity never quenched
slow dancing in the headlights
scared of nothing but love
she's like the sun
the light
the energy in a room
that invisible pull
effortlessly drawing you in
oh me, oh my
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ramblin' ramblin' sad girl
oh me, oh my
woe is me
tough luck honey
that's just how life'll be
you're either in for the ride
or payin' the final fee
oh me, oh my
live free or die tryin'
